Which Is The Real Seijo?

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One-day sitting lecture: when our "soul is split", what is true? Just sitting in the midst of samsara.

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hello i'd like to share a
a story with you from the tang dynasty it's a ghost story
and it appears in a case in the on con case thirty five called cgo and her soul are separated
this story was suggested to me when i was a student at tassajara one winter many years ago by senior dharma teacher male weitzman
once upon a time in the state of caution there lived an old man named token
show khan's wife and other children had died but his youngest child say joe who was very lovely
was quite alive and the joy of his heart
choke on used to tease a job when she was a child and say that her beauty was only matched by her cousin o two and that some day they must marry
just about the time that the two cousins realize that they were in love token announced his choice of another man as husband procedure
the young lovers were heartbroken
not able to bear seen sage oh married to another o two left the village that night setting off in a small boat
he rode a fair distance when he noticed someone running along the bank in the moonlight as if trying to keep up with his boat
at first he thought it was a ghost so he wrote faster
to his great joy he found that it was saito who had followed him and they decided to travel to a far off land and make a life together
many years later when sancho had become a mother herself she realized for the first time how deep a parent's love is for their children
her conscience began to bother her about the way she had treated her dear father
her husband oh to also regretted what they had done to choke com and together they agreed to return to their homeland to ask for his forgiveness
when they arrived and caution sancho remained in the boat while oh two went to apologize to choke on and to tell him what had happened
the old man listened but he didn't seem to understand what o two was saying
finally token asked or two who are you talking about
the young husband replied your daughter sage oh of course believing the old man had become daft
but my daughter never left home the old man exclaimed shortly after you went away she became ill and was confined to her bed she hasn't uttered a single word since you left
you are mistaken or to replied st or followed me and we went together to a far off country were married and we have to find children she's an excellent health and wants to see you again and ask your forgiveness for running away and marrying without your permission
if you don't believe me come down to the boat and see for yourself
the old man was reluctant so ocean went along to bring sage go back to her father's house
in the meantime choke on went into the bedroom to tell the six angel
what had happened
without a word the invalid rose from her bed opened her eyes and rushed out to meet the approaching sage or and as the two embraced they became one
at the end of telling this story to an assembly of monks said master ghosts will ask this question
which one is the true sale
when we ask this question each to ourselves it can become like a small lantern to light a pathway through this mysterious life
without lanterns lanterns of inquiry lanterns of curiosity
we may never move we may never learn and we may never grow up
like cedro frozen in her mindless trance we may forego our freedom altogether
for endless cycles of familiarity
in buddha's language this and the cycling is called samsara
come zahra it's the first and second of the four noble truths
nereus suffering
and there is a primary cause of are suffering
and that is this very illusion of a separate itself
is it one
get it too
st joe's other story that of a young mother and wife
is about taking risks making choices and being alive inside of our own aching hearts
saito split into pieces over her love for her father her village and her need for a partner of her own choosing
so it's also a story about saito running away
and this too is called samsara
and the circling endless running away
in either of these choices whether we take hold or whether we run away we lose our homeless by half
in this story of saito offers to us a valuable illustration of this tendency in the human heart to split itself and to
the part of us curling up like a solberg around the difficulty and part of us going on through the day talking to our friends eating our meals answering the phone
and ignoring the poor little sell bug curled up inside of our chests
if we just keep on moving there is a pretty good chance that we'll never really notice that part of us is simply missing
our wholeness are completeness
our companionship with the great mystery of awakening itself
which is the true sage hill
so each each of us must answer this question for ourselves you know who am i
what is my true name
to what will i unhesitatingly respond yes i'm here
i want to suggest that such name is a universal name
and it belongs to all of us equally
it passes through all the barriers of time of place of species
and it's a name that joins us all together with everything else
when buddha is a name like that
are you awake are you buddha
in the commentary on this scorn of saito and her soul master movement says when you realize what the real is you will see that we pass from one husk to another like travelers stopping for
for a night's lodging
the husks that he's talking about are not something that we can touch with our hands
there is nothing solid for us to rely on only temporary states of mine
even the sow bugs are only momentary in their appearances
and i think all of us have had this experience of running from room to room in the great palaces of our conscious mind and down into the basements as well
and like children slamming the door is behind us as we go
some of those rooms are very sad some are very pleasant
some are filled with rage or desire for fear
but where is the true self
who is it that's running
suzuki roshi offers us a clue
your true self is always on your side it's not the object of anything it's always the subject
your true self is always the subject
it takes a while for us to get any use from these clues and we continue to ah
chase around like my cat does when she's trying to catch her tail
but eventually we may recognize a need to slow down
and to look very carefully into our lives at the restlessness and the anxiety that limits them
this is the shah meta practice of tranquility
all the buddhas and ancestors recommend that the best thing we can do for ourselves is to learn how to sit calmly
on our cushions and as a part of our daily fare
i know and i know you know that it takes a lot of courage and determination to bring ourselves to the cushion in this way
and even though we leave our belongings and our shoes outside on the racks
we bring with us embodied oliver our personal history
all the joy and sorrow
all the numbness and the rage the confusion and grief
and in the face of such chaos and complexity we do something very simple
something that we can simply do
we sit down for awhile
so i wanted to share with you my own personal practice
in this endo how i approach a period of meditation with this body and mind
i find it very helpful to attend to the details of my posture at the beginning of each period of meditation
so i want to invite all of you to please take all the time you need to find your place and to settle their completely
beginning by building a stable
and balanced container out of your legs and your pelvis
for the upright placement of your spine just as you might prepare the soil for nourishing a young plant
in sitting practice the energy of our life is pumped upward toward the light
toward the sky
and it carries with it all the circulating components of existence
water heat minerals and air
zazen is a dance of the great elements
the mahabharata
can you feel
just that
can you be just that
earth water fire air
planned and i'm alive dead
which one is the true saito
suzuki roshi says that sooner or later we die
and we go to the same place we go when we sit zazen
so next i'd like to suggest that to direct your attention upward of the base who performed the base of your spine up toward your head
and see if you can uncrowded the vertebra
one after another
as you become aware of your lower back
notice along inward curve
that mirrors the softness of your abdomen
and then as the spine passes through the shoulder blades there's another curve
that mirrors the softening of the throat
the most important placement is that of your large and heavy head
see if you can allow it to balance on the tip of the spine
not leaning forward or backward
years in line with your shoulders
and nose with your navel
your chin and your forehead are parallel to the wall
the last area of attention is this great circle of arms and hands
the mudra of the hands has called the cosmic mudra
with the fingers of the left-hand overlapping the fingers of the right hand and the thumbs gently touching
we make a little cradle
why did the level of our abdomen
very good place for resting or mind
if you are tendency on the other hand is to go to sleep i suggest you put your attention at the spot between your eyes reddit your for him
until you feel awake
we breathe gently through the nose with the tip of our tongues resting against the upper roof of the mouth
and our lips in our teeth are together gently shut
and then open your eyes
an open your ears and your nose your skin
and open your mind
and now i'm like god
allowing all the tension and self concern to drop into the fathomless well of our existence
the way home is not a journey of distance or of time
it's of letting go
nice paemen children says letting go of that which doesn't work
at the moment of letting go we are able to witness for a moment every moment
the illusion of separation itself
which has been forming and misinforming our lives since the date was born
mind as separate from body passed from present self from others the right way from the wrong way
pleasures from pain
subjects from objects
ten thousand things
the one true self
when we do sit down for a while like we're doing today
some very unusual things may begin to happen
during the long quiet moments in this room those little sour bugs may feel safe enough to uncurl
and and to reveal what they've been hiding from your view
i think you may be surprised at times by the intensity of the pain and you feel
when you release what has been hidden for so long
last night i saw upon the stair a little man that wasn't there
he wasn't there again today oh how i wish he would go away

and yet at the same time of our great disillusionment
there is another feeling just on the tip of our tongue or at the outer edge of a finger
as though some singular awareness extends beyond our imagination and the multitude of our feelings and our thoughts
what is a key what she called big mind
what master dogan called one bright pearl
at that time and in that very place perhaps the one where you're sitting right now
there is an appearance of true self
coextensive with all that is
a self like continuously turns toward life with unblinking and compassionate regard
wisdom eyes compassion eyes observed sentient beings
assemble an ocean and blessings the on measure
when we perceive with this large yourself we perceive a capacity to cradle and nourish the ten thousand things
this is the wisdom beyond wisdom prajna parmi to liberate mother of all the buddhas
and in the great mother's arms we can grow confident of our ability to walk in the dark
to move slowly and carefully to the rooms of the conscious mind leaving the doors open
plane with our friends
this is saito who tends to her family her entire family her parents her children her community and even to the reclaiming of her own abandoned self
every moment and embrace every moment and admiring view of the swiftly shifting changes in color taste texture order and sound
the clouds and the moon are the same
valleys and mountains are different from each other
all are blessed
all are blessed ten thousand blessings
ten thousand blessings is this one
is this too
thank you very much