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one of these days we should just do seminole or something or class on this hutch the gunman because it's all it has everything in her and in
to hear the true dharma that upon hearing it
no doubt will arise in us for with that we lack in faith we will renounce worldly affairs and therefore the graders and all living beings here's apart although our pet this everyday i can hear different part of it today i was hearing because of our past evil crime has greatly a key
simulated indeed being the cause and conditions of obstacles
so we call on the teachings in the buddhas and ancestors to be compassionate to us that us being compassionate to yourself and free us from these karmic effects which is or practice
allowing us to practice away
we are one buddha one ancestor this is a you know the buddha's when he was a world when he was awakened he said i am i alone am something something i forgot that that's what he meant were all this one awakened life and that's what this is

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this is from the a natter
la conner sutra
then the lord address the group of five monk saying body monks is not self
now we're this body self monks this body would not tend to sickness and one might get the chance of saying in regards to the body let body become thus for me let body not become less for me but in as much monks as body is not self
therefore body tends to sickness and age and one does not get the chance of saying in regard to the body let body becomes thus for me let body not become thus for me
and then guess where he goes next
feeling that you guys always skip over emotions it's amazing remember the last time we did this
hey feeling is not self and one does not get a chance of saying and regard to feeling let feeling become thus for me let feeling not become thus for me
perception same thing
and here is to the next one
consciousness is not self that has come as a surprise
consciousness is not self in as much monks as consciousness is not self therefore consciousness tends to sickness and one does not get the chance to say in regard to consciousness let consciousness become such for me lead consciousness not become that
for me what do you think about this month his body permanent are impermanent
but is that which is impermanent painful or pleasurable
but it is fit to consider that which is impermanent painful of a nature to change as oxygen but is it fit to consider that which is impermanent painful of a nature to change as
quote this is mine this am i this is myself
you don't seem very confident
is it if something is painful as it appropriate to call it me if it's change and impermanent thank you same for feeling same for perception same for consciousness
i'm okay
is feeling perception data data are the habitual tendencies these are the some scar has come up come up for us with minus stored in elia k r the habitual tendencies data is consciousness permanent are impermanent
but is that which is impermanent painful or pleasure for
but is it shit to consider that which is impermanent painful of a nature to change as quote this is mine this am i this is my self know
wherefore monks whatever his body past future present or internal or external gross or subtle or lower excellent
all body should by means of right wisdom be seen as it really is thus this is not mine this am i not this is not myself feeling so on perception so an habitual tendencies whatever conscious
snus on chauffeur this is not mine this am i not this is not myself
seeing in this way monks the instructed disciple of the buddha disregards or does not identify with or does not give substance to body and she disregards feeling and she
disregards perception and she doesn't identify with habitual tendencies and he doesn't identify with consciousness not identifying
this passionate strood his passion she is freed in freedom the knowledge comes to be i am free and she knows destroyed his birth lived is that well then it goes on to that kind of language
right thus spoke the lord delighted the group of five months rejoiced and what the lord had said moreover while this discourse was being uttered the minds of a group of five monks were freed from the cankers without grasping at that time there were six perfected ones
in the world

and are you getting the gist of what the buddha is saying as okay this is his teaching this is what he sank us over and over again none of the scandal is myself and the way to work with it is not to identify not to grasp
any of them
in practice what happens is is that first of course what we do is we work at a very growth level because we believe just like most of us here in the room actually believe the body is me how could it not be
perceptions or me sensations or me mine i have my perceptions they're happening well actually if you say they are happening to me and then you have to kind of reconsider our the perceptions you or is it that whatever the me is that they're happening to
are you following me here okay
we talk about my practice and we talk about my consciousness and my emotions thoughts
so at first we told we believe this of course we do how could we not where we believe it and it's fine the only problem is causing this enormous amount of pain and suffering so what the practice is the first turning in practice is that you begin to take responsibility for the emotions thoughts that come up in you
as you
first is we must take responsibility means we stop blaming everything else for causing us our own discomfort
the next thing is once we really get that these emotions thoughts are located over here and not brought to me by the fault of somebody else then what happens is what we still we still believe who at that point we're still believing them and we're still in a lot of pain
the next thing that happens is we begin to begin to take away our identity are grasping at emotions it and begin to see what happened as a process rather than being completely caught by the events were no long can completely
caught by the content or caught by the emotion or caught by the whatever it is that come to view instead we're studying it were studying it were were resting and a kind of awareness were resting as the watcher or the observer and were watching the process go by
with that slight detachment and and only takes a teeny crack comes less pain and less suffering
and as a more subtle understanding of what actually is happening
the next thing that happens once we are no longer once we kind of are fried really from the hysteria the drama or the
stories of our emotion thoughts then wish we settle even deeper and we began to look at itself we began to look at the identity itself with these things what actually
is happening underneath the emotion thoughts and underneath the stories and sign self-worth
and to i'm going to suggest to you today
that what is happening underneath
the emotion thoughts and what we identify with has me which is the teaching is exactly what we call the watcher or the observer
which is monique which is the thinking we reflecting
sense of separation
it is with that consciousness that we pretty much are identified with his me so it gets subtler and subtler
and we take back our identity even with that consciousness as it says here consciousness is not me
so going back to the text
liar and i think functioning is a very good word that somebody brought up for the other day
elia is the possibility of all past
he danced all the some scars the emotion thought all the possibilities are are being kind of hell they're attached or their sticky a liar has a sense of stickiness it has as attaching quality
but it's undifferentiated we don't experience it as such it's just all the possibilities and in that regard eight i looked up
volition the other day because remember the five universal's that come with elia one of them was volition and i didn't quite get it there the way i understand it now is that it's a potential they are not actually an active willful event at that stage but it seems to be actually the same kind
and of volition or the same kind of karma so the definition the two definitions
one that was given to me yesterday is the stirring in the mind in relation to the object that's that possibility it resides malaya and another definition that i also kind of like is it's defined as egocentric demanding and that that was kind
and it's having the function of holding the mind to what has become it's reference
i think both are those are pretty good but yet again it's still a potentiality it's a potential
these potentials arise with the function or the transformation called minus these functioning for these transformations are not separate from consciousness it's not exactly that it splits it's not a different kind of consciousness this is all one
event that happened extremely fast and even simultaneously
so as soon as minuses their manas has the
the effect of both affecting elia because what happens in modest with all of the tendencies of grasping because of the sense of separation and is thinking and reflecting mechanism and the bringing up of defilements when it has its new so called new
experience it of course puts it in a new experience which is a another reef occasion of self
that revocation returns to elia and influences elia and because of all these possibilities being held there these possibilities influence and come up with minus that that relationship
oh as just however it this is teeny self
this is small so this is this this is the arising of the sense of duality we're talking about this a small cell
hey mako

what would not even close to nineteen michael
do we need to go there now
the third one and i think this is really i told you the other day this trillion interesting one that kind of gets overlooked the third function the way the mind functions and natural thing and the buddha did not say that the arising of the sense of self is to be destroyed we do
have individuality it's the nature of how it is to be human what he said the problem was was attaching to that giving it a sense of inherent existence of substantially allottee a revocation imputing
that's what gets us in trouble the grabbing onto it gets us in trouble
so what this does is and minus is this grasping itself the grasping that manas does primarily as grasping at this side of the duality and an issue you can watch this you can watch yourself grasp on the side of me or grasp on the side of other
so modest tends to grasp itself that side of it but of course exactly coming up with self because
they are not separate it is a sense of other of course and the sense of other what happens is that this idea this is a concept the third function is a concept concept of object concept or idea of externality
so for example if when minus is functioning first what happens is like if you see that flower that famous flower that were studying when minus and doing it in there is a sense of self and other but the other is kind of
like that monitors more
staying on its own side but by the time you get to the concept of the object not by the time i mean it happens
immediately the concept of the objects make sure that we think make sure that how we relate to it anyway is that now the other is actually a solid event
and i'm sure it was useful in our development of human beings
now along with
the sense of separation that manish brings to us

it not only comes up with the defilements
in other words remember we were talking about when we view something in perception it runs on the same neural pathway as an old view of the similar thing so not only do all those old stuff or that all stuff come with it but also this has can interesting along with minors
come cute
we have self confusion self esteem self view and self love
these are defilements but these diplomas hood the some scars yes finally

yes i think so yeah
so along with this this is really interesting the first thing that comes up to kind of i don't know why i'm going to list i'm making this part up to kind of mask than this has just happened we have self confusion which is simply the config being confused now is the beginning of ignorance
we are now a little bit confused but about what the reality is of this sense of separation
it's actually an illusion but we kind of get confused about it you know confusion as a really interesting thing in the tibetan
way of thinking about things they have a family's psychologically families and one of the families is the buddha family and the tendency of a buddha family person is is that they have confusion is one of their just kind of fallback mode it can interesting because
confusion people usually who say they're confused they're not confuse they just don't want to be feeling or thinking what they're actually feeling or thinking

it's always plus miles from neutral
toys and buddhism that's it it's really sensation
that said
he says
i think it's just because those five things are necessary in order to have consciousness period that consciousness comes with though there's a fundamental universal
what's the word
characteristic thank you of consciousness they come out with it
so anyway the same thing is true with this kind of confusion it's not exactly that we don't know that this sense of separation is of an illusion we just ignore it were just confused about it
then after we i don't know if it's then but okay what happens then is because we're going to confused about it and we need some kind of rationalization for making that okay we get become proud of it right away
oh i've just made separation isn't that isn't that great
if it self esteem or self pride we take we begin to take pride in the sense of separation this individuality
oh individual puff puff puff
and then what happens is and again i don't know if it's and then just the way i'm saying and what happens then is is that now this is really the key for and saw a but for binky
is that we see everything through the sense of said of self that self view we view everything through a me a mine
it's important or not important depending on how it affects me
that's basically or stand
you know whether we're going to have a war or not has basically to do with whether it's gonna affect me or not
it's a sense of referencing everything to me so it's like a picture of the whole world is happening and then right in the middle of the whole world is me and everything relates to meet directly
and then even if we're not feeling good about that you know if we've kind of been that doesn't even have to do with whether we have a good self image or night
we do still love yourself
ha and i just want to say again that ah
the practice with this what the buddha recommends as the practice with this is basically letting go and this letting go sometimes is problematic because we we don't know what that means kind of in a way
but if you can think of it at letting go basically means returning to the present moment when turning to silence
it means release
it means renunciation
it means renouncing the self whenever it comes up and at these different places you know initially you renounce the self at the very growth growth level that the level of emotions and thoughts eventually you renounce the self whenever the sense of separation comes up that's what now you just let you just know
note it and you don't you're not bothered by you come right back to the present moment you do not identify with consciousness or anything else
now let's turn to the text because now we should be able to kind of zip right through
a number of them

it's not recommended yes yes
true and that is one way of working with it however working with it in that way it's filled pretty gross because there's a self they're saying this is not mean
it's recommended not to do that and in fact in the text it says if you have to stop at mere concept it doesn't say it says right in the text if you say this is mere concept that's too much we just want it you just want to be aware of feeling for example and then just that's it
you stop and you come back to whatever you're doing if we can you know i mean this is not easy
but get me
but this so but this is exactly this is the problem and the practice right here right here in this to paragraph
this is are not to la cana senior
so let's take a peek at the text

i think we must at least beyond three don't think
so it is enough on identify it it being a liar is an identified in terms of concept of the object and location it has always possessed of activities such as cut
scuse me
contact attention feeling perception and volition
and i think in a what i think that's what i understood what helped me understand yesterday was the business that it's it's not knowable to us at that stage it's not identified it's quiet and that was not locatable it's not active
in that way it's kind of a resting place for all the possibilities
in that context the neutral see so here it says in that context the neutral feeling is uninterrupted and is not to find and so our contact and so on
and it precedes like the current of a stream now when you sit oh did i miss somebody else i i called on gay boy called a new target
you can see when you sit in zazen
in that it proceeds like a current of a stream
you know the mind stream and all of the possibilities come up in
something happened to me at it in a long kaylee what
yes i think the whole thing right it is below
activity for us below a it's not conscious for us it's just underneath happening by the current of a stream and that every so often lots of the kind of the stream come up for us like when you sit at him
there it'll be nothing's happening really nothing is impinging on yeah yeah not the person that you know in zazen you also have all this anger for didn't just come into the room and it's just the stuff popping up all the time from down there is popping up and doing its thing the sad thing is is that
you know if you don't sit it if we don't develop this kind of awareness that were actually run reactively by all the stuff that popping up from the past

not fun

thank you

yes yet
number five it it's a lie as dissipation occurs in our hardship associated with his process and depending upon it occurs the consciousness com minus which is the nature of mentation now this is a really interesting part that
we talked about yesterday a couple of somebody in me
and i thought about that and i think when it says it's dissipation occurs at our hardship
what i think is happening is is that the nature of the attaching
that function that the attaching of ally of the t m the quality of holding on to the defilements is what in this case is dissipated that's my
my latest understanding and i think that happens because what happens is two things happen when we actually practice with equations the defilements and minus
as we begin to pull away our identity our identifying or as we begin to not impute substance to these dependently co risen events instead of ignoring their dependent arising and ignoring their impermanence and ignoring their constant flow we go
grab onto it and then we get flung into dealing with the events rather than justice knowing the teaching which is this constant empty change of apparent events just going on and on and on so as we practice and the defilements are seen through
and as mana said we don't identify with the thinking process which i hear and calling the observer as we stop identify with that that that dissipate and and because manas and elia or speak to each other the attaching mechanism of liar
a releases that's what i think dissipation is at this point
hmm no oh okay good
yes a mana
while the thinking thinking remains that i think the attachment in the attachment to the identity with that function stops
and i think mine is actually does i think modest the the way it functions as a sense of separation it said you know what is said about the people who are really awake it says that they have both awareness is that they say see separation they say
you know they know that there that do it they know they don't merge is that like is merging event they're still human being there is just as they see they don't see apparent things with inherent existence so in that way minuses over way over

what is the

yes that's right
exactly the clashes are they have gone you've walked through your karma the past stuff does not come up when you have a perception

yes batman
yes cetera

the enterprises

that after a while not wanting to
he didn't get together at yeah books less of hamster
can you sprinkle a bit louder again
yes no yes that and the different direction instead of grabbing on would just awareness
you know
of listening
look for
it was good it doesn't come up
photo courtesy

yes very much matter

he then yeah
chennai letter that the way better were thinking that
well mean we get them and enough
what what we've been talking about it in turns a karma
oh you mean that question
the aggression
yeah yeah i could do that i'll bring it next time again when they let myself a note

hey james which with them
i that the big occurred
that mean once you discover
but if
that he pretend to is where we know
no vacancy
let's let his the other words what was the other ethernet that transform what in fact transform transform he is the way transplant doctors the kid
well you know it depends on how deep the karmic event was for some you know as you do this practice the more superficial and diamond come up he has gone gone check gone down by as you won't have to walk through all of it that's why you know our path is this path
i don't mean to snap away am i hesitated here and it's bad news i if good news actually it's a pad it we we walk through or path of checkmate we do the same patterns that we knew how we relate to people over and over again ad nauseum until we really get it and remove
move our identity from wherever it is it we get stuck that's why as you're practicing if your present really present first you see the suffering you know for first you believe the whole thing okay the i were talking after you've already stopped believing the whole thing is being the truth you say the suffering how it causes you surf
during and then before that is a really weird part because you know that what you're about to do is gonna end up and suffering but you still have the karmic momentum the energy is still a still enough to keep you going right down and miserable bath and you're seeing yourself do it you're going oh my god
neither don't do this in there you go during an interesting place
then what happens is that you being more present and doing that enough so that you really see the consequences of going there you begin your mind as you might get stronger
is able to be present for things before that event and then before that event and then before that event and almost usually always there is a key turning where you're holding where your identified where you're identifying a self that you need to
two we've been taught to there's someplace there in the self that we have developed that weary basically are afraid to let go of
and once you find that play still it's gonna be scary to let go of it but you do you don't identify with it and then you don't go down that path

a hurry
so we have to know ourselves really well that's part of going down that's partly as a big boy practicing we need to know if our tendency is to for example be averting and some of us are more gaspe so you have to kind of know what you are and balance your effort you learn what that is of
your tendency is to avert than you need to know that about yourself and make sure you go right away make sure you feel the whole event in the body before you know pushing it away

well you know there's an added factor to that because that's actually a fit evidence huge as a physical as well as and you know a person can have an enormously strong mental and really want to stop and you know physically they're not quite they're not there yet and they need tons of
help to hold them in that such as this is not quite the same although sometimes with with really deep personal psychological addictions
it almost as feel like that you like like it like it is an addiction and it takes them a strength and it takes that much courage and it takes that much help sometimes we need a lot of help and we should not have about herself
and get it know when we need it

did you get your better than pinker
ha cause i did out it is passed on and it was it has been filled you

hmm that's also true
yes that's also true
okay back to the text
endowed with the four types of defilements constantly concealed and undefined and this is an interesting part of this because
those the for defilements in this case what he's talking about of course herself you self confusion self esteem and self love and the tricky part about this is there really subtle their concealed and undefined they are happening and coming up and we we don't notice we don't
notice that we are confused about the nature of the self we don't notice that we are i'm seeing everything through the point of view himself all of this stuff needs to be brought to consciousness and
when we do see that we are seeing things through a sense of self this is a this is a
how much
so i was gonna give you some examples about how this works from the point of view of your daily life i hope that you are ah
i hope that you're watching the stuff that we're studying happening in your daily life and clicking yourself into wherever it is it
you know is appropriate for your particular practice that this that what we're talking about is actually helping you on view what is happening in your day to day event as well as in doesn't
so ah
one example
am i was talking to somebody the other day i was happy to see them in the zendo so i said thank you for coming to thousand and then
have you know it when whenever we say something or do something relate to some you never know it's gonna happen in a combat completely neutral statement
at the person made a judgment about it you know whether they i forgot actually the whole thing
oh could you
thank you i forget how could you tell the story
what k when it rolled out

that was like it
remember what my fact that are like know
following her at the door
roping vendor
the blogging and wanting man
oh halfway to them
the elder life
i hate her
you do like
if nothing don't worry that kind of idea
you know
i'm not i'm not going to have as you might have a winner and
for nothing
i guess that's a year
that is that was alive by a pathway
other than
and then back to the even though i idea
and then would get them here that
i heard
but if that moment i figured
a pathway
the now
have you been wiped my ninety nine

because i really appreciate her coming because the night before was her birthday and and could have also been that she celebrated a birthday so i'm wearing stephen came to the zonda and i made me happy
i was actually nice to see you
he never known
and also possessed of other forms of contact and so on attention feeling perception volition
born of such self you and the rest of it it is not found in the worthy one door in the state of cessation nor in the super mundane path
such as the second transformation the and then tomorrow we'll go onto the third one and
yeah i think that's good now can zip through the will zip through the am
is a liar
it was the superbowl
oh i think if they think it means the you know proud of our hut
center let me leave you with this one are you okay boys and i just want to read this
this is just a you know we knew and what we just talk about but
i'm just in terms of the same thing we were talking about this teacher tony parker said something during one of her talks and she saying maybe we are hearing and implied criticism in that question that i shouldn't have
any motive because that's wrong whatever is being said here no matter how critical it may sound can there remain moments of simple listening
this heavily conditioned brain has difficulty in hearing anything innocently
whatever his heard is fitted into a pre-existing context laid down in the past it here's criticism where there is not intended it assumes that conditioned reactions that are pointed out in a talk or wrong and therefore the opposite know conditioning must be right
and that therefore i need to get rid of my conditioning and please tell me what practice will do that for me
on and on no criticism is implied just watching the minds rattling on how simple can the listening be is it humanly possible to listen without adding interpretations judgments conclusions it all happens at lightning speed as
and no one is doing it
the brain interprets judges concludes demands answers according to its accumulated structures laid down in the past the body orchestrates the process with an array of sensations from the most pleasurable to the most painful
in our daily life there is so much living in brain made stories and so little waking and plane unadulterated presence there is constant entanglement in habitual reactions with little awareness
labels concepts prevent looking
memory is relentlessly shielding immediate experience with stories from the past
there is nothing dangerous in being completely unconditionally what is the only danger lies in maintaining the defensive cover
in this inward listening can resistance be clearly felt and seen an abate on its own it takes subtle attention because we are so used to our resistance that we do not often notice them directly
but as we listen and watch openly there is less interference from memory telling us what everything is and how it will be in the future

is it possible to move through one's day and be with people without referring everything to a personal me
it is a good question to ask and a wonderful way of discovering the nature of that me it is not in the words it is not a practice it is not subject to will it is birds singing care moving gently story coming and going brett
flowing back aching heart beating sun shining beholding it all in silence with an open heart that does not go anywhere

as the wonder of presents tony backer
k get to the zendo
an intention