Hand Me Midnight

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Sunday Lecture: Daigan's trip to Bali; ritual; poems from Daigan's new book, "Hand Me Midnight"

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and twelve do good morning
how many are here for the first time
how many you have never seen me before
well then i'll owner do spice of air
my name is geiger on
first time i heard that in this room sixteen years ago i thought my teacher who was calling me daikon
which is you know is a big white japanese radish

i thought he had a very acute perception of my personality for your manner
and then i saw that i admit a mistake
and the interpreted by name has been a big of great greater bow i thought he said
great bow
that that was strange to
but he was my teacher
and maybe from now and i'd be called great bow
but it turned out it was great vow
and that
that moment and then name stuck in my head for
the next sixteen years so i've been calling myself that since since then
and of course i get a lot of feedback on it but die ganze be die guns
ah the many blows
no i'm here also tour
to talk about elucidate the dharma
and the truth and experience of enlightenment
but since i have forgotten what those are going to talk about something else
our trip to bali
this is a travelogue morning
recently air
i had the good fortune my wife and i arlene
where are you hurt you
where the
guests over a couple an old friend of ours who invited us for a month
salsa the equator
and no baleno heard about you but i grew up hearing the songs like bali hai
and so on and people have been there are many of our friends have been to bali already under spoke very highly of it said you may never come back so far so as i would take a chance
and go and let my my lovely wife your hang ten on a shop in wave

well i stayed by the pool
and read books on buddhism
back which actually i brought along with never opened
when the ball is really very interesting in the
my first impression was that a gun i know this place something about the atmosphere bali
that i reminded me of something that seemed to be in my jeans and my blood which is a kind of up
deep close
finding a bonding with fellow human beings tribal the and very very close to those powers it
that we try to control issue
ritual and prayer and ceremony
and it was very interesting to watch the society of integrated highly integrated people
performing their day to day life and tasks how many have you been there
so you know what i mean maybe you know
the him what they call the bon gye on so
a group of people i think mostly oriented around family heritage
and maybe a few families that may be a is one hundred and more people huh seventeen hundred people
if we were lucky enough when it would we got there to be invited to some of the festivals and some of the rituals of and been performed one of which was a funeral and cremation ceremony
so soon i found myself standing in a sarong with a decent in i should allow it into a neighborhood
festival actually
transitioning of the people from
this life to the other world and what a celebration that was what an offering it was for people

every day
when it was a shop
a family or
an office or workplace twice a day intact where we live that the people who get up and offered to the
to the statues or to the altars some offering flowers and incense and cuttings
blossoms flower blossoms into to all the
representations of the gods and goddesses and powers that they've inherited through the indian tradition
and reminded me of of something that we once had been lost
and that we try to regain in our practice here places like green dodge were we before rituals and ceremonies
the connection the blood connection he old
very old and ancient connection of blood between people and rituals is something that least when i perform them myself i don't have simple empathy although i can feel it there
i looked at to i looked up the word ritual
to see what it had to say for one aspect of visual and
ritual may be defined as an action
when imitative of an imitative their symbolical kind designed to achieve some end often of and supernatural character
that will not be achieved through normal means normal means
by the person performing it or on behalf of whoever it is performed for whomever it is performed its efficacy is usually deemed to depend upon his careful conformity to a tradition and pattern it's efficacy
depends on the careful conformity tradition and pattern that's when i wanted to say i felt that tradition and pattern and the ever conceived to the details of
of their day life at risk of moving to me but as we live right on a rice paddy
and of course being south of the equator with by the way i checked out to see if the of the toilet spins the other way i ran on a wide and flush the toilet several times where we're right on the equator seven degrees of the water would straight down
so i haven't haven't really settled on question yet
and a springtime there you know
and so now that race was been harvested and and in the old way which was somebody grabbed it by his hand on her hand i'd say they were women actually
and receive
curved blade cut it off and handed it to someone else who thrashed it over
large container and they did this for hours right outside after which they flooded the the patties and brought in the ducks so every morning the ducks and roosters to wake up to
and to somebody who would allow chasing away the birds from the patties that he that continued to hadn't been thrashed your picture somebody who everyone would shout out as if he were being tortured ah
hey ah a five o'clock in the morning i started his medicine
maybe a revolution if something beginning on saturday
he scares the birds related to the birds will use the bird chaser
of course you know those
don't mean to say that this is a society that's totally isolated in no time it became romantically from the modern gods of google and yahoo they have that and they also have their own versions of all of it and of course at night the god or goddess of all
modern life is at large and all the houses and bearing very brightly which of course is television
so they're not that different in that sense
but my mind the woman who will be called to to who took beautiful caravan and was charming and lovely lady
had an accident motorcycle which everyone drives at top speed there
and what was to target interesting about this and she wasn't badly hurt her toll was damaged somewhat but it was painful but not mortally wounded mortally wounded was that as soon as the accident happened somebody made an offering and it to the spot and put it down
because from her point of view she had made a mistake in our karma and she was paying for
can we think is seen in that light it seems that the we have such a close connection
the to the forces of
we may call god
god had buddha him pluto mind
you have a prettiness prison witnessing awareness whatever we wish to call it
were answerable to
by paying close attention to the details of our life
and that reminded me of the kind of practice that we'd like
i'm trying to generate a kind of culture in in green gulch of the green gulch is not a family oriented particular family oriented in the same sense we do have a tradition now
and a large turnover people who come to shoulder the hall with the practice and
try to generate a sense of the
fidelity in order to the details of our life
to the extent that that energy can be extended into back into the ether into the universe for the wellbeing of everyone

but for my part and to as i said before that brought up in their own a culture that is predominately in the about individually yourself
and expressing yourself in
the forty ways of power or somebody just wrote a book and the forty eight ways of manipulating the world
in other people on that
the closeness the blood closeness
this is gone and may as fizzle bitter
mechanical when when i do it the rituals in that sense
but we try

i always find it interesting to go to a new country has totally country we have no history
yeah he had strange customs you don't know each other in and your reference points are pretty much missing
and if you separated from your spouse or your way for your friend we're when you therefore a well and you're just there by yourself
it's an excellent to kind of study this question of whatever what we think of as our identity and you can't put notice and what you call yourself is made above everything else so he's been
preeminently influential in your upbringing your culture

not to have to given a name not to have to talk about it particularly with other people for over very interesting kind of invitation to do
because innocence i noticed is
kind of intruded into all of my thinking to all my feelings when i was alone they're not trying to see anything that trying to experiences in particular not going anywhere simply being nice setting your palm palm trees coconut palms and saw
what kind of parrot parrot difficult sitting and yet there's a certain edge
the one is what i like to live here
what would it be like
the lot of expanse around
when watching the line i was looking for something new to get hold of new canoe a new place to secure itself
until as for five days become loose and accustomed to the place
and then stories comfort forward and we begin to establish did you treat your roots down the names out there in front of we all know who we are where places are


it also always film by age and wanna go somewhere
maybe replace i find it my last breath
and whenever manette number comes home to roost at three in the morning again
how does it feel
this really good practice sometimes lizards on the wall
talking to you know
lots of frogs outside strange voices in the night
the mystery of life mystery of beings the sense of between worlds the state

the scary

try to pick up a book and read it doesn't work
nothing helps nothing ameliorates or softens a feeling of wrongness
all the senses are woven the feeling the vibrations and the moment where are you
in in the need to look for some something that'll
ah as a comfort console tell you who you are
names don't mean a here and we don't understand each other's language
it's good to get away sometimes and fewer i forgot i used to do when as young man tired and i'm older
that'd be easier put you put yourself down any place in the world after all your settings zen all these years way to be at home or the world everywhere i go what a disappointment

well i to make associates we are a lot of fun
most time i painted
my horse was a person and turned down by painting of course the i assume that might know about that in bali bali our lives in ubuntu where we stayed is kind of the artistic capital of of that
of the island and also the balinese themselves
they're dancing and music and gamble on music and dancing their virtualizing of everything in art form statuary woodcarving whole neighborhoods devoted who clans as it were devoted to one craft and so on everywhere you go people have this sense of art
which all the museums museums and hit the classical era but they also have other new new painters
the moon abstract expressionism
post expression this
so i in wonderful painting very ally very juicy yeah it's good for emily said the spectral legal efforts
and we're very tolerant of our efforts
said nice things about them
you go downtown near sharp and seven hundred better pictures the first shop he got to
by better have been maybe more accomplished technically

this is what happens these days
her blacks of sentences and ideas drop away
can think of anything left to see you
i've been suffering that sense that he's a twenty two
so to fill in some of the time in
i thought i would go with your permission
read a few points
from a book
that was published in
and smuggled across the hall dot not really
published in mexico by our dear friend andreas
siegel and his sister a seagull
a group of poems and prose poems which i
in my better moments wrote called optimistically henley midnight
great title for it and teach you don't event
so if you don't mind i'll read a few and then of course if you like them
the you can have your very own autographed copy
by the mad monk diagon and you can pick it up an office for ten dollars and all the funds will go to good causes here
i receive no remuneration it goes into the general coppers coffers
the price of one would be ten dollars
of course i am strictly liable for a tone
message idea utterance contained between us covers in no way does it necessarily reflect the views of the management

i'll get back to bali if i could figure more
this is called all your day
over days you will be honey bunch sweetie pie and sugar
we run over groaning in your sleep your lover will pat you on the head and say poor cupcake
one morning in the bathroom mirror you will stand revealed as a jelly bean
and even walking down the street you will begin to feel you are feeding the insatiable sweet tooth of time
you'll be packaged in a crisp rapper and sold over the counter
then slowly chewed and swallowed in small wept labs
in one day
a certain hand will crack open your hair heart will crack open your heart like a fortune cookie
and there you will read the message of your life it will say all your dreams come true

the game

coach says everyone needs guidance
says in the beginning there were there was the family our the hope chest the salt of the earth and the kings or answer
tells us this season we work on the four basic plays the fire the ice the emperor's clothes in the morning after
coach pulls a tragic romantic from left field
the line drive and high fly ball or burned into our midst by the electronic turndown
i get caught in a squeeze play between second and third and the pitch heather walks in the dugout we exchanged tobacco plugs and steroids
between games i looked up i burn up on and particle physics and string theory and i'm big on the concept a unified field dynamic suddenly we're down to games
coach don't look at me like that
i'm up to bat that consists in here confident relaxed
the pitcher is there a man from havana
then i made out of parts gutters from fifties forums and chevy's
hmm the chance for the pendant race in my hands gripping the bat
my eyes narrow why shifts the plug my other cheek
here's the pitch
the fast ductile inside and know
he translates with a long looping spanning which i fall into the stance
then it gets wrong was in a row couplet and i a guy who was taken as measure really connect and send it out of the park
i get a free champagne shower and immortalized for a day and a half

this has nothing to do a sin city please don't be discouraged
to lay a foundation of equilibrium first remove tough outer skin
using the principles of diffusion and as moses holds itself at an angle with but end up
careful not to use too much pressure or it will crack or shatter next he's slowly but do not boil
wait until a sticky consistency develops
this will be a sign that an unraveling has taken place and the denatured self is ready to be removed and transferred to a cool dry corner
do not disturb for seven days
it is then ready to serve
the larger than matter of degree for best results install under the sign of the ram makes a beautiful centerpiece as well as captures the essence of italian art
there's many different moods

may i read a couple of war
i can't think of a single dharma thing to say it

sometimes the diamond comes through even in the poem
i want you know that if you're embarrassed by these poems you should have been a my see where it came out on me
club soda
in one breathtaking moment the purse snatcher
cop the gilded lily and made off into the golden midst of the tropical sunset
drinks around the house gloria looked bored stiff buffing his nails digging clams is hard on a manicure
there was a blizzard of feathers resulting from the evenings pillow fights plus a drizzle of positive ions
but the tango lessons with dynamite and live some lucky lady swooning in a hotel pool for an hour afterwards
a bunch of getaway kanata set around the table sipping cognac and teaching grammar skills to the waiters each one looking for chinks in the armor their own and others
that sound as if somewhere a whole was lightning in the ozone the faded air flattening faces in the buttermilk pancakes
i ascribed the reason for this to the so solar storm the papers claim the world was being subjected to just then i'd have paid up or shut up but some little part of eternity intruded on my plans and came down like the rain on my new shoe
i gambled away at my cufflinks center the continuum i couldn't recall if this was the place i'd signed up for i became inaccessible to myself i drank another club soda when i didn't belong to and went to bed early with a splitting infinity

it was for the moment magnifico
a golden light filled the room
she said it was how she did her hair and they did it well she always should said she'd do it as she did it i thought i did it to i did i think i did didn't die
the bears were gone by then and the bunnies also
you got closer rather fire untold stories there and our gingerbread house
the moment came when i just wanted to stay in bed the covers pulled over my head but the sun beat on the doors and windows until it was led inside who are prior straight at the cat
we ourselves don't live here anymore either
it is not been conclusively establish whether we slipped a trip to either way that the other worldly may have had a hand in it
he began when we took a breath and the smoke cleared from our eyes how it ends remains in the contract as the clause that will freak out the canary c l a w s
in the meantime the judging continues but so far no bottom in sight
to muffle the sound almost every evening we strolled arm in arm down the avenue of priceless furs to the pond where the paper boat is waiting to be set adrift with his small candle glowing like the last star zorba
meanwhile she tosses and turns no one knows how she does it but she does it did it found a window into sleeps where for all we know she's slumbers on the back of a black swan that cruz's the internet looking for reliable information on the subject of meaning for real
ocean ships me stay close to the fire processing

where'd you get the idea
there's some serious point to

that poetry is generally serious
by its very nature
it's so serious it has the laugh at itself

you realize i've never be invited to speak again
part of my plan

i want them
but they're very good to me in my teacher says you have to watch it and do it you had to go out here and let them throw things at
go ahead
you too polite but will come back for discussion that going to tell you that will compare for discussion and then you can tell me what you really think

the people's for their smile a lot
the first thing i saw was the immigration persons frown when it returned here
even immigration people are very nice friendly smiling

before they took me away and tortured

why is look beautiful setting out the everybody you know we are buddha just as we are
you've been sitting here you can make a mistake decision don't take taken too seriously

the situation is this is hopeless been australia's
and while we're here we have no choice
when we have one choice with to ourselves as a sarah go bowling

more we can
nature those good people pay homage to our life and all of its details
no washing dishes and giving up and going to meetings spending hours arguing over detergents
we're in a bottle called in the ozone and nothing
escape in the
vanishing species around the globe
but meantime
can we get a dance and laugh
megan on signed up
when we tried to do it with a dharma which is just maybe that what we're doing all the time anyway
just given a former name is this a local habitation

i know that when i was in bali and nine awake thinking about these things i mentioned earlier with a kind of shudder
hey i started calling my breath
the best practice ever learned was that simply go back to one start counting my breath

and when i got the ten
wait a minute i never got to tell
i got about three and then it was somewhere else
if you wouldn't want a confession i really gotta confess something this is the truth and where the person i've never made it the ten
that's the truth
very few good seen it
i never needed to tell without losing it
my losing it i mean you have a boss that the one i said you the rest of days and there's just concentrate on the present don't think of anything else because your breath that's me
no the boss thought the practice or that of course mind has a mind of it's own doesn't it was often does on stories
what a wonderful invention is i can't control it
measure that i can't control it can control my mind of my body so much try as i will
i don't get very far i get about three sometimes i needed to seven i do know somebody here who's made it to ten so many times that they now count the number of times it can make it to ten before they they lose it
this is the way that might work site as soon as it's made this it has an elaborate and get a little more character it's called agreed
so almost eleven now

i always admire her all the other tissues can come in here and there actually they were or our and keep talking about things that are interesting how did you do it
what are you do it
and but i'm practicing i'm still working on next lifetime you if you're around and we meet again course we won't know who we are but new
maybe recognize some here
anyway i thank you so much for coming in now
it's a beautiful day
we could simply have one singing and course we do have one singing priest here so i want usurp them but it is a good for morning recently i saw in the new yorker maybe target this one there's a joke in a new yorker about this guy he's he's happy he's dancing his arms around know to and flowers in years
and he's singing oh what a beautiful morning you know that song from oklahoma
and the caption is a denial
so there is
yeah it's the new age where denying the hard facts alive
thank you