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One-day sitting lecture: not accomplishing anything.

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memory weapons years
the earth is so the through mind and say can improve by your screen

her well like most most one day said
we have a number of
people from outside joining us today
we have people here who will probably have never said a one day sitting before
have we have people who said other places but not here
we have people sitting here today have been sitting for thirty years of more practice
all kinds of practice practitioners and practices
i brought here on a saturday for one day city
yogic practices tantric practices
mindfulness practices
harding the breath
following the breath for passenger practices and site
meditations examining the my dennis processes
philosophical speculation

his hard dock to come in here with some idea in mind about what this thing they're doing is about
for how we should go about it because there's such a vast literature
and so much information particularly nowadays to pick up on the internet
dozens of publications with excellent articles by the long term practitioners and teachers
one wonders with dogan zingy or even suzuki roshi were thought of it all
hi i'm suggesting that today
the we
consider leaving our
ideas are practices whatever they are at the door is if they were in a backpack
all those concerns about how we're doing in terms of the buddha dharma
for anything about the buddha dharma in particular
this leave it at the door
when come in and take her seats hold our seats
hangzhou for sitting on the very edge of our life which we are actually
sitting on the edge of the continent
and in this room the special
kind of sanctuary
sitting on the very edge for of our life
with a not knowing or know knowing mind
a that doesn't have any answers
combine that has given a questioning for a while
a mind that is no longer concerned whether it is drifting this way or that way
christian and particular place or not
a mind that has been suggested
by the expression give your com a big field to rob
that's half of it
you know sometimes the mind is called a monkey jumping from branch to branch of thought the thoughts and times is called a cow grazing here and there for their own yard sometimes is called an ox
that the practitioner tries to chase down and finally
and so forth
but today
if we have to have any strategy at all and their appears we do even if it's a non strategy
could just let all those ideas go and just sit with no gaining idea whatsoever
that there is nothing whatsoever to be attained i could possibly be attained that we don't know where to have
but then this is the other side of it
we do put the snake in the bamboo tube that is to say we take our posture before our hands and our cosmic murderer
we either sit in the says our half lotus or bernie style upright on our question can we don't move
that aspect that part of it
we maintain bad yoga
that ceremony
we hold true in the rest we let go
ah i guess if your mind channel shirts let it
don't do anything necessary that you think is necessary for try it
whatever comes up whatever channel comes up and grabs you what whatever that you is
let it be it'll change
and you will notice it
and if we sit long enough here pretty soon our bodies will be the
central to channel that we will return to as it begins to fidget in each
and the desire mode for all of this to end will arise more and more strongly
maybe blesses will arise for some of you
experiences of lightness and wellbeing and others will
experience other states of mind states of psychic or psychological experience so what
we can do you know a hold onto those stages those states are buying that make us feel good actually and avoid or work with or analyze those states away and they don't feel so happy or good
but and
today at least lettuce practice something else which is total letting go
i've even that idea
nothing to be improved
nothing to be changed particularly
if you are in the going through a really hard time right now
that's what you're sitting with if you're going through a wonderful blissful time right now sit without your board on your guard sit with that
and if you don't know how you feel that's even better
be that
and if you need to change you feel you must be in control than that's what will be
the path of least resistance sometimes called it has been called in the past flap dog
which is much a flop don't we just flop down on a cushions for their hands and let things be in their own way
you know since we've been children we've been striving for something striving to get through kindergarten so that we get in the first grade so that he gets into junior high school so that we could get into college and so on make the right match me through a marriage find the right job do the
right practice constant achievement orientation
but before today we're all total failures and
but flat dogs
none of it worked none of that help otherwise why would we be here if are infinite and stuff help
he's not easy in fact it is almost impossible
who are kind of double jointed
two-sided nervous systems
to let go
our processes are habitual energies our mindsets
when we shouldn't even try to do that we shouldn't try to recall them today the whole idea is to make friends with them whatever it is
you probably have seen pictures of
i know i have seen in assuming a painting picture drawn by a monk sitting very
no very correct upright posture and around a monkey seated all these deviled sin
ghostly figures of who've
who'd said word
hovering know with long hooves hoofs hoofs offs
cloven hooves are devils it's little horns on their heads and all trying to sit with log
no motors is sitting with it that's all the mindset so we have allowing less than anger and resentment and bitterness and the blame
in the sorrow and grief
big open field for all of that to be just what it is to be just what we are
i can't do it either actually but this has been my practice for a long time now have a years ago when i came here i practice these other things they following the breath and the passion on samhita calming the mind examining the mine
her nowadays maybe because i just you know i'm a backward kind of student never could accomplish anything that this is my practice it would give up the flop dog practice
what have i got to lose them get along with is not a long future in which i have to maintain some sort of status in the eyes of an imaginary world anyway
so i've just come in i actually think the best times have been the times that i have actually fell to is no hope for me and to just surrender and still set
and in such a places this
such a tradition is this at the edge of the continent at the edge of our seat at the edge of our life
we have these forms that have been passed down to us and those are maintained even in the space that we have set aside from such a purpose
i think since time out of mind human beings have had places like this what they call sacred places or places reserved for special occasions of inwardness a recollection or
getting in touch with
what seems so on graspable unknowable
probably in the beginning it was a place where we kept the ancestors' bones
way back when we live in caves and grottoes and on must have been a place where
we needed
some way to
focus on
the ineffable
i know what we would consider to be a spirit world of that which are which we don't have any control
and some sort of reverence for the past and for those who have
come before us and passed down whatever customs culture a particular tribe might have
and so i think you know it's not surprising that forms developed around their particular kind of space how to enter it
how by entering that space with an open mind your the putting a certain foot into it
going through some sort of elaborate
consciousness of the rituals that we perform in the world how we touch it we step into and how always sit in the midst of it
such a way
that it would seem at least in the minds of certain
sensitive individuals or individual sensitive to different dimensions of what we call reality that
there was a process of procedure and a place in which we would do these things together
a fitting place

then develop around it of course
i suppose a whole class of people who became the arbiters or the mediators between
the ordinary nurse of our lives and the other side or the other world or the other worldliness the spirit world color what you will
who could interpret for us
course i'm talking about a priest class of eventually
into whose hands we placed this responsibility of propitiate in the gods as it were or at least the mind or whatever the particular
description of our current reality may be
therapist priest
moderator mediator
as if this were just the way it was already
was never enough for us

her reports said a time comes wind
even death doesn't help the time comes when life is an order in order just like with no escapes
that's what zazen his time comes when life is an order so to speak to start life the way is with no escapes even zazen is no escape enlightenment is no escape from no escapes
even death is no escape
who will be natural for us in such a situation just to sit down and in s division what else you gonna do and finally faced with that
has he said the port said
time comes when
you can no longer say my god
time comes even longer same my love
you sit in a dark room with burning eyes waiting for something to knock on the door

suzuki roshi said i think it the beginning zoom mind beginner's mind what is difficult about zen is to keep it pure in other words as we all can interpret in their own way but i think we all know what it means is that as soon as we get a little bit
comfortable for forms and the way of doing something
we get attached to course to our farms we do our own yorkie so well you know i can do it faster than you or i could do a neater i can bow really well i can but the incense and just so i complete the bells the other instruments in in a way that is very pleased
seeing everything becomes an object of desire even the simplest things like bringing it a baylor placing the brain stick of something into ashes
how does the same force about in psychology as the political situation in the world
you still get angry and upset and attached over the smallest
aspects of living together in a comparative mind
that's what we have the forms for in places in rooms that are set aside for rituals and ceremony so that actually put our nose right in the center of
what we are and how we are with one another
not how we'd like to be how we are
and make friends with that
but today we're all flops nothing's worked
raw diluted poor peeps
where do you do the peeps
can even with at that one go

how don't know how many talks how many books
how many study periods i have encountered in twenty years of living here
have a wonderful inspirational talks over
and if you'd asked me two hours after the top most of the time maybe between us after the tough i could how to tell you when i remember hearing
and not because i just let it go simply because
because that's how we are
occasionally something would stick
most of the time
can all go somewhere else
pretty soon we forget everything except one thing that we've already gotten our body and that associate
the city still not morning
what good does it doesn't it
please set aside in the hurly burly of the world right in the middle of the marketplace little rooms that we step into little places that we can go to sit down be quiet
have nijmegen listen to all the stuff in our hands
you know know whether to call a beautiful are awful
for both
hi i think we are designed for progress we are designed for the shooting that we're getting somewhere
with her life
sometime down the road over some other condition or time or place i will finally know the truth
that's what we think usually a lot of the time i do i have
will we know
we've read it we've heard it over and over we even remembered sometimes that with there is no down the road
there's only this moment that as arising and even that moment that arising is totally ungraspable
he yes they did a survey
asking people how much money they needed more this is few years ago but the type you may not be money how much of something
and see how much or enlightenment or how mature freedom from worry or
how much more tranquility or whatever positive thing you might feel you need everybody for the millionaire to the pauper that they asked all needed about fifteen to twenty percent more something once they had that once we have that
we will be happy moral twenty percent more relationship with somebody significant other twenty percent more money
more recognition more love or kindness or something i'm just just not right away i am i just i'm pretty good but
twenty percent
maybe for practices in
the yoga or philosophy
maybe i could study current and hago and then naga gina and compare philosophies subtle epistemologies at finally know high work the trouble with knowledge and information is as we know information spawns and need for more infinite information
bottomless need for filling
the a fillable whole in us
what does it isn't suffering wherever this actually joy
when there's no duca
huh oh
that's almost an apostasy and say that but there's no suffering in the world that we'd all suffer what if that's the greatest illusion of all
would that be a joke on us
because one thing we certainly believe in is that we suffer that the world is suffering slick around him in the news but look at the newspaper look i mean the information tells you this world is misery
for teachers have told us is unreliable you know it's impermanent it's not worthy of our consideration and so on
and that's certainly seems to be the truth of what if not or that's just more
when we program one another
have you a flop dog you see if you find finally give up you know worried about those questions anymore you can't deal with him you're too stupid game or to deal with it
the almost be happy know
you'd almost be happy with the way things are
just said
i don't let the mind do whatever it wants to do
memory lane that's a good one
the evening news
the point of station
the religious are
country music time
list job list things to do things i must get done
he just watch it it's so fascinating isn't own thoughts pounds and others by you can feel if you sit on he can feel the contraction of on the thought he can feel the actual hunger of going or i don't want that i want that
the to stay with them open and close open opening clause whooping cough
slice it tied sent a heartbeat
you just feel him
ad infinitum ad nauseum
feed me feed me feed me
what shall we say about that how about just don't know
while the same father's patriarch said just don't know his most intimate
why you're practicing
who make all this
guidelines and rules and sore and will constantly running afoul of them
one on society at large and the world at large and our families and a little narrow circles and a couple cobbling
for all the rules and regulations that we have made for ourselves always we want be with always keep falling up and sequence it feels that way
break up breaking up with somebody
leaving some situation with unfinished karma

they asked her i can't remember his name i think we might have been robbed us his teacher and what is it was his
yeah neem karoli baba moon crawley baba well what is
what is nirvana
you know he said
while suffering of course
suffering is nirvana do not separate one feeling from another apparently
hi i'm sitting on the edge of my life
and it's an abyss around full of darkness
this bottomless and i'm afraid i'm going to fall into it
have them falling into it all the time for him backwards into it pour it into it
hatha years ago i thought by the time i was sixty years old
i was quite sure when i started by temer six years or i would know it falling into that darkness would bring me too i would have some answers i would kind of walk a lot more lightly in the world i would be somebody secretly of course
i'd be more motorcycle
well that's thirteen years ago and guess what
because i feel that way to stack i hadn't seen way have always been
gosh we're always gonna be like this stubborn
for all these years or city
for all the hard work i put in
where's the payoff
he'll pay off baby
when i was about sixty two i suddenly realize it
when suzuki roshi and all the teachers and there's no payoff buddy
this is you already enjoying your pay off
you're already high as a kite and your life
are your problems you your joy in your bliss
when you wake up to that fact
i'm a flop down


gotta hold a ahead of us to just sit here and be flat dogs
wonderful flat dogs
two legged five dogs

and the edge of the continent and the edge of my life
just don't know
has try to set really still this afternoon
get a little each and the cornea knows
one a scratch and
don't scratch it
when a move your legs don't want them
what you may go keep the snake really tied in the bamboo to
there will beat ourselves
sooner or later
who begin to resent
have you resistance desire
for something else
that's the best time
i don't know you've heard me say this before when you heard may be okamura while she said when he talked about his life
growing up going to do
kanazawa so was in university sitting with the best teachers of the days of silicon me
kono russians lineage with uchiyama roshi and so on
every other week always sitting always sitting always practicing everything all his law practice and comes to the united states goes to work with two other japanese monks to up a monastery in pennsylvania
work your tail off to make it
go and have to make money at the same time he gets so sick he can't move so tired he has to go back to japan so sick he can to talk out targets can go out on the street as a monk and beg even doesn't even have the energy left for that nothing he said nothing and then he said again have i said nothing worked
he ends up in his brother's apartment in osaka
he's gone for a little while little apartment
it hardly movie can hardly keep his food down he doesn't is more dead than alive
and what does he know one morning he said he got up and he sat and he said for the first time in my life i did as it
the first time in my life i actually did sasa
it was a first time in my life i had no gaining idea whatsoever
when from that moment on his life change began come up again
there is something in his practice but just sitting there are actually yoga practice you know how we fall slump when we get depressed
even we can leave if we never take anything else from these practices out into the world but just the fact that we can set up street in the midst of the horror that often surrounds us know meaningless bustle and hustle the seemingly meaningless and he has seemingly a parent will
and just come from one to ten and our breath
just that i think already will be enough
i will be accomplishment enough if we have the of accomplishment to be able to do them
if the joke of it is something that was grandma taught you the mother taught you long ago just count taylor remember gossip the corner and look at the wall
you need a haircut
now we now we come here we sit for hours looking at the wall you shave our hair
we put on robes will become very uncomfortable if we were forced to do this we'd probably file a lawsuit
but we're willing to put ourselves through this because we think we're quite convinced underneath that there's a pale
we haven't quite reached the end of our group yet
maybe this afternoon we will
no more
thanks again chest
life is in order
being is enough
hmm okay that's enough movie
i don't prepare talks anymore as you can see
i used to i used to suffer over the talks
what you do you go and crack all the books so you can get some juice from someone else that's called slip in the dregs and zinn
it is because all it was a very outset so you can get no a fiddle high on what they've have seven bring it in sheriff that's okay that's what classes for but when we come and sit down together then we gotta know i feel like i just be straight out with one another what's going on in her life
well i thought the day i just come in and sit down and see what came up flop dog came up
a big flop dodger
but i love it and enough laptop
it's wonderful not to have to succeed at one thing in my life i don't have to succeed at zaza
i would know if i was succeeding that students enjoyed teaching in a nutshell you cannot judge sosa
how would you put which you which part of you what sub personalities going to come forward with its finger and say that's awesome
you're doing good thousand now he's gonna know
the whole community is sitting on the edge
and as always sitting on the edge so is falling apart and it's our job to put it back together again that's what sizing us we put it back again and zaza without doing anything
it falls apart more me put it back together but just be willing to come in sit down together
when i gave me ten minutes here the will
walk and sit some more than marijuana as a questionnaire
throw something
notice your reactions knows how we're always reacting that's the other part of this whenever i sit down in a in a lecture and so what i look at as well reaction i like this i like it i'm bored with a mobile phone for with grabbing
pushing grabbing pushing dummy tuning out coming in during a grabbing for we're doing that with one another all the time would do that with the world all the time times called the pinnacle arising
sources of constantly redefining ourselves with an information
what we call self old information constantly being redefined
many questions
stateless susan
as a kick out of the well

don't do anything about myself and be awesome

lot of what


thank you very out
guess grace
how to recognize her music is your hair longer or something
well i heard

right now
can you just what
go prone know with the game we're played here to say you can't do that flopped i guess is set up really straight
keep the mood you're right next to you and so and that's the game we're playing flop dog reminders flop down but the body is done enough laughter
flap dog mine
you're working with negativity that's what we're doing all the time working with er negativity or cynicism or skepticism and software but i'm suggesting today it just as if whatever a naming processes are they come up about all of this and i'm just name is the war stuff more images to put in your head
it's just weren't you would just another way of saying what's been said millions of times much better is that let it be misled i coming it seems to me what serious about his let things be the way they are for a little while
will give up step off the time we were back into the maelstrom of our life
then we got a function than we have to equivocate and strategize into all those things we do with maybe more sensitivity from the city maybe not but this where we sit
we're not creating any karma run that particular were just watching at all big what it is and we're making friends with it i think our cynicism here are negativity
the one we don't want to be come on so i i love you too
and then of course we try to work with one another in a harmonious way when we step off this time
swing off the tongue and our feet hit the ground
what feels like the ground anyway
sometimes i don't know about you but have done kenyan and here whereas i was walking on clouds that is to say something really sponging can be a those experience in kenya
for feels like is going on
given sitting for your the whole world begins more becomes more permeable more softer
come on we got a couple more minutes here we gotta go to you know at to fall the schedule years this is


i love it
how many times a wake of the morning and say i'm going to be a failure to yep be no i i can't i'm gonna feel today ah geez i'm going to feel the test i'm going to feel the boss and the field zazen i'm going to feel docusign and would feel my relationship and fail fail fail instead of you know i'm going to if you are you today okay great
for a change it really feels good to be a failure
in this what is the corner bitten a meritocracy is a good were calling a new and ah meritocracy
getting married by of our
you know
we're really getting good at stuff

well we are you know we got telescopes now we get people can tell us what quarks
we know how it was something about evolution
we we have all kinds of information that should make us feel better but i read the paper and it doesn't seem as makers with differential from last time i was around rather think it was during the time of jingles con
also wasn't a very nice tend to be alive
in people were practicing very hard with this kind of country like them because you know the outside they were lays siege to the city where they laid waste to every man woman child

you just wait nutrients can
oh you guys were getting preachy and had to be everyone is that is doing this


yeah you can remember it you can you forget it that's a wonderful thing but impermanence no matter what we said it goes i'm going to know course or to the are certain traditions like in the
tibetan tradition and so on where you actually get really focus until you can hold that focus for a long long time
but most of us and particular in this practice comes and goes
and they're coming and going is it's it's dancing with that rhythm rather than trying to hold one particular space that is i think the heart of our practice how do i danced with that i can't remember
is what did what did the rocha said rocha said at one of his poems at the crucial moment i forget always at the crucial moment i forget