Even though Sashim is nothing but timeless now, this is also the fourth day. How worried between what happened before and what might happen after. And an opportunity for us to explore. What is it to live where we have to live? In the place, in the time, in the body, in the mind. Science looks straightforward, so simple.

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We're always doing that. Is there any alternative? Yeah. And yeah. So that's the thought I want to offer you today. What is it to abide? Maybe this is the apex of the Shushu. We've reached peak concentration. Peak equilibrium. And it's the apex of our lives. This is the day. This is it. Maybe. Decades later, we'll think back and think, ah, the goal that we give.

[02:29]

There's a wonderful story, and in there, there's sootless apakashapa comes to visit Shakyamuna. And Shakyamuna went off, started to teach, and became He was quite famous. He attracted a lot of sound members, and they traveled as a large group. They were given many places. Whenever you're in the neighborhood, you can stay in my bed. I think they were given buildings. Because it was so many months, there was lots of rules and regulations. Ramakashila came to visit Chakala. He said, back in the day, you know, it's just a fire that was in a forest. You know, this is pretty sweet. I'm not so sure about all this. And Jackie Murray said, I'm not so sure about it either.

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Well, maybe this is back in the day. It's just happening now. Of course I can't arrive, and of course I'm not. There's a way in which my vital light into this product, dude. This otherness, because he's not wearing meditation. It is simply the dharmagated reposing bliss. It is the practice realization of totally culminated enlightenment. It is things as they are in suchness. No traps or snares can reach it.

[04:41]

Can that afford us sigh okay yeah here we go this is it this is the body the mind the breath the weather the Sun Leslie back and we have Jack back. What more could you want? That mysterious stunt there this morning. That was Leslie falling over. But being Leslie, she got back up. Maybe I'll get back up when we follow her. especially in the early symptoms.

[05:59]

This is kind of what I'm trying to talk about. It's called calm abiding. I think it's a shame that calm abiding leaves us with the question when we reach a certain point. It's like, is there less pain Or I'm just more receptive or more adjusted to the level of pain. Yeah. Yes. May our lives be so. There's something in us not by itself. So agitated, distressed, unsettled, by white psoriasis.

[07:13]

Dugan Zenji, isn't it referring to his later fascicles? Guess what? He had a, however, in that wonderful statement. Traps that sinners can never reach Many people get sick. Because, this is your hopeless transmission, because their ways of using their minds are not correct. To attain the significance of a living. four elements of the body will naturally become seven your mind will have clarity the four elements when I was reading this a while back I think it's not so uh

[08:39]

Easy for us, it doesn't count so easily in our culture, to think, oh yes, of course, this is just another example of the four elements. Birth. Solid. Stable. The basis. Fluid. Potential to flow. To adapt. To move right. Wind. Movement. Now. Substantially. To energy. Fire. into the transform.

[09:52]

Each of those part today. As I was walking over, I noticed, oh, we have a little bit of wind today. The heats are doing less, but there's still some sun coming through the clouds. In my experience, Casa Atta has a presence, a supportive presence. say remember fluidity everything changes and how do we let the characters whether we think the character of now the character of today

[11:14]

character of the sense of being that we have right now. Whether you think in terms of the four elements, or any other way you think about it, and feel, and experience, how can we give over to, evoke this calm, abiding, Can we explore deeply the simplicity of just being where we are? How we are? Acceptance. There is a term.

[12:18]

in Western spirituality called Divine Discontent. It just signals that discontent would have a positive attribute to it. I think it's tempered, it's balanced by And it's savoring the Lord. Yes, this shame is still a challenge from the truth. It's asking something. Maybe at times it feels like it's demanding something. But isn't that the way life is?

[13:25]

Isn't life always asking us to live, to relate? Isn't something within us asking to be acknowledged? Isn't something within us hungry for a sense of well-being? when it strays too far from it, too hot or too cold, it gets distressed. And without dismissing that part of our energy, can we allow or an acceptance. In Tolkien's engine, in 1233, 34, I've been written first version in 1237, 34, seven years later.

[14:46]

Last version, So 10 years before his final birth. This party didn't change. We left it the same. How do we achieve each one of us? Where will you find that permission? It's not a straight line for most of us. I remember when I was teaching stress reduction to focus in a rehab, residential rehab.

[15:57]

And I was teaching some yoga and I thought, well, I would like that if I would not relax. discover if if your substance of abuse was an offer relax lying and being told to relax is agitated if your substance of abuse was a downer when you're told to relax tendency is to go to sleep so wonderful inviting as it is to just abide and now we have these due to end responses okay that's how it is we're human we got the product of our condition

[17:03]

It's easy to step back. And yesterday I was mentioning an army general who charged in with the soldiers and killed 250 women and children. It's easy to step back and say, what a heinous monster. I mean, he threw in some insults or criticisms of the man too. Why did they fall in order like that? only put it into the web of being. Who isn't the product of condition? Why would this day, why would this moment in your life be any different from all the others? The influences come into being. reconciling is it contemplating the four elements or is there some other I think for the Western mind reflection on our psychological development

[18:44]

formative experiences as we were growing up. And hopefully we come to some place of forgiveness. The significant people in our life, our parents, our family, or whoever, they were also proud of their set of circumstances. yogic intricacies and intimacies of our practice are saying, can you reach in to our own being and touch people? In the Satipatthana, it's just, it's for what he's practiced on.

[19:54]

We reach in, we touch it, and we know it's, what's it like, what it's like, whatever that horizon is. And what's it like when it's not there? One of the marvelous things about the shame One single day, you can notice, huh? There was that era of my life called, totally morning sunset. And then there was another era of my life called, after lunch. And another era called, evening sunset.

[21:00]

And in the midst of them, there was a certain state of mind, certain experiences, certain relatedness. There were times when I was intensely consumed by what was happening internally. There were times that my attention were out Thus we can notice, acknowledge, contact, and experience each of those. Now with the mind and heart, let's all this heroic crusade to reality and turn it into a 16-foot golden ruler.

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Maybe something much more close to our human heart. I brought this poem by Paddle and Ripa. It's called A Lost Child. And it's kind of a whimsical poetry. He uses it on how he became an adult. but never gave up on that child. So we watch it. In the classic formulation of early Buddhism, we practice Vipassana. We practice, excuse me, we practice shamatha.

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And then we practice reposal. We settle the mind. We make a deliberate, dedicated effort to be attentive in the moment. Sometimes shamatha gets translated as stopping, stopping the incessant flow of thoughts and feelings, calming, gliding it down. Sometimes just making contact. So for the first couple of days, that's what we did. And then yesterday, since we've mastered that, evolved into a more expansive mode.

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Interesting. We start with the most important thing, me. What involves most of our thoughts and feelings and the skillfulness rather than thinking okay well that needs to be eliminated that needs to be suppressed dissociated from we study it we experience it it somehow As we engage fully the workings of the self, it loosens up.

[25:32]

I was never in a linear fashion. Sometimes it feels like it becomes much tighter, or some aspect of me becomes a more challenging, intense, problematic, It's through that that we find calm about it. As I said earlier, maybe it's as much to do with our capacity for accepting and tolerating our discomforts as it is that they disappear. One of Dogit's fascicle is called the deep acceptance of a karmic debate.

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And then as I said, you know, we can watch, we can watch the morning person we are, fade away. We can watch in a moment. A thought arises. Often with some flavor of emotion. And if we watch it and don't fade it, it arises and it falls away. significant in its expression of being alive and just another coming in though. That's the second factor and the next two factors are maybe we could describe them as

[28:01]

what I'm trying to talk about today. This willingness to experience the experience that's being experienced. As we start to set it up, we have the capacity to let what's happening be itself rather than the trigger for another judgment or associated thought or stimulate an intense emotion. Letting it be itself. So that willingness to let it be itself And then that last factor is to let it float.

[29:14]

So as the distant side of the aircraft comes into consciousness, okay, now is not being diminished. It's just an addition to how it's expressing itself. So all this implicit in Joget's paragraph where he goes on and he says, When you tune into this, when you attain its significance, the four elements of the body will become naturally light and peaceful.

[30:22]

Your mind will be refreshed and have some more clarity. Puna Ruta won both, I was awarded both a global peace prize and an award. He wrote in his poem, he said, when I stand by the sea, I learn something. I don't know what. Maybe it's music, maybe it's the words.

[31:24]

The lost time. A slow childhood, out of which, as out of long grass, grows The flower. The core of the human. Who was that? What was that? What were we? There is no answer. We happened. We were not. We kept on being. Other feet, other hands, other bodies. Everything kept changing leaf by leaf of the truth. Did you? Your skin changed. Your hair changed. Your memory. You were that. That other one. That other one was a child. Who passed. Remaining. Running. That other one was a child. Who passed.

[32:28]

Running after a river. After a bicycle. And with movement. Your life was gone. With that moment. Thoughts identity walked in your footsteps. Day by day, hours gathered. You were not there now. The other came to be. The other you. Until you became, until the train, until the wagons of your life, from substitution, from the traveling self, you brought a new self into being. The child began to change. The pain diminished. Her self stopped shifting. The skeleton stood still. The bone structure stayed firm. The smile, the walk, the gesture. The echo of the child. Who had started from a lightning flash.

[33:31]

That grew up. Like putting on a new suit. Which now will be a dog. borrowed and works. I'd offer you this closing thought. What a precious day to be able to deeply, deeply watch yourself be yourself. We all have notions. Oh, I'm this kind of person. And I think like this, here's the kind of memories I have. But today, you have a chance to check on that. I think there'll be a few surprises for you.

[34:34]

And I would say, you find a certain light of water. Almost musical. It's a strange thing to be Asian being. on the things we inherited, the shapes of our walls, the family feel that we grew up in. I helped teach a chaplaincy course and once we went up invited speakers and one invited speaker came and before we talked about laws

[35:48]

He said, think about how your family related to loss. Did everybody start greeting and hugging each other? Did everybody fall quiet and nobody said anything? Because however you did it then, you're likely to do it now. You're likely to think of that In case that's the normal way. But that child has turned into an adult. All that is not yet moderated. and modified by the intentionality of our life.

[36:58]

And to grieve and weep some insight into what we are and how we want to do. Whether you want to work your way through the four modes of sonic otanism, just to let it arise. Maybe at the end of the day, you could write a poll and win a Nobel Prize. And maybe you could tell the rest of his interests not being sold reckless and obstinate. And you could look at this price too. Probably not.

[38:02]

What is it to let our heart set? What is it to let something release within us? In a simple way, we can just say, okay. Here I am. Here's what I am. Here's where I am. Here's the people I live with. Here's the life for living together. I have all sorts of notions about before, and I'm making up a new list for what's going to happen next. But for now, I have this extraordinary opportunity experience it for it and learn from it learn how to love it I don't let that turn me out I would say in your own life in your own words in your own feelings in your own images

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I wouldn't let it catch your heart. I wouldn't let it stimulate a certain kind of, huh. A little surprise, a little curiosity, a little appreciation.

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